Monday, December 25, 2017

attached by a thread

The ideas that we think make us free are actually the bars to our prison. There are free people in the world but they are not restricted by money, religions, laws, constitutions, flags, anthems and pledges of allegiance. Allegiance is not free. It is actually giving yourself blindly to an cause that you follow no matter what position that cause takes and you trust it will never go wrong.

Saturday, November 25, 2017

Waking Your Sleeping Soul Course

I have written a 31 Day course that I made another blog for. You can find it here. It will begin on December 1st and I can't wait. I'm going to do the 31 days myself cause goodness knows I could use a refresher. Hope you will all join me. 

Friday, November 17, 2017

It’s Easier Than You Think:

Having a peaceful existence is easier than you think. Of course writing it down and making it accessible to everyone is not as easy. In order to do this I might have to give you a few personal examples that might make me seem full of myself but I assure you that there is nothing special about me. Peace mostly comes from knowing a secret that you won’t find in school.

I wrote the 
happiness exercise years ago to try and help people to see what the secret to peace really is. It really takes committing your life to keeping that space for letting people be who they are everyday even though in the exercise I ask people for only a 3 day commitment. The reason for the 3 days is just to get people to glimpse at the possibility. The ultimate goal of following the exercise is that by opening up to accepting the people in your life at whatever level they are you will begin to accept yourself. You do not have to be anything but what you already are and the same goes for your people. That is the secret to peace.

A few years back I went to an event with a couple of other people who also manage offices in other areas of the business that I work for. These two ladies actually said to me in regard to how calm my office is, “I want to absorb some of whatever you have.” I told one of the ladies I went to lunch with, “I can tell you the secret but you probably won’t believe it works.” I told her that you cannot meet people in a battle between wills. Anytime you engage in that way no one will win. Just imagine how frustrating it is when someone tells you that you have to do something or else and then compare that to how it feels when they just ask you politely. I know in our office we have a lot of folks saying yes when they might have said no because we don’t use force and we give them a choice. We just choose to take the gentler approach.

Another example is this. In the last job I had before I started my current job, I was asked to teach a day class in an art camp for children. During the process of planning the camp we had numerous meetings. In every meeting we spent most of the time talking about how we would disciple the children and how we would keep them corralled in the individual classes throughout the park where the camp was taking place. The lady who was directing the project explained to us that she had always handled projects with children in this certain manner and that it had always worked. After about the 5th meeting like this it became so unbelievable to me that I finally had to speak up. I just said, “I am not going to do anything you have suggested and these children are going to be amazing.” And, folks, that is what I did and they were. I did not give them one rule, I did not direct their actions in anyway and I had zero issue with any of the children. Here is a little glimpse into what my campsite looked like.

The class I taught was 
the arrow ceremony and the art was making really creative arrows for the ceremony. The hope was that I might teach the children to be creative in their own way while also learning to set goals. I hung dream catchers in the trees, burned incense in the air and played tribal drum music out in to the world. I also threw a blanket on the ground for any of the children who wanted more solitude while they worked. I gave them paint, ribbons, silk flowers, feathers, fabric and thin wooden dowels and then I told them about the ceremony and set them free. Let me tell ya folks, it was the place to be. These children were so calm and relaxed. It was the favorite class of the day. The lady who directed the event came to me at the end of the day and she said, “You have amazed me.” The thing about it was that I did not do anything really. I just allowed. 

I just wanted to talk about happy class again. It's been on the blog a long time.


Tuesday, November 14, 2017

5 magic minutes

I think I may have finally captured the idea I have been trying to get across in previous videos. This may only be the 3rd video but I think I say it's the fourth. I lost track.

Monday, November 6, 2017

get busy living

I've had a few people ask me how I stay young so I'm gonna tell ya.

When I had my first child, Lance, my mom went straight into trying to make me an adult the way she thought a proper adult should be. Anyone, including her, that knows me should know that trying to peddle your way onto me is not ever gonna work. The first, second and fiftieth time she told me to dress my age I completely ignored her.  It ain't what I do. I always wear whatever speaks to me. I don't care if it's the style. I don't care if anyone else will or won't like it. I don't care if the head of every person I pass spins around exorcist style in disbelief that I'd go out of the house that way. In fact, I kind of like it if it disrupts their day. If what I wear is something anyone worries about I think they have more problems than being offended by me. So I've got that goin' for me, which is nice.

I don't believe that getting old is a matter of how old you are. You know you see people of all ages both able to do whatever they want and also debilitated by sickness and disease. There was once a man locally that was over 100 years old, who delivered meals on wheels to people 30 to 40 years younger than he was. I once helped judge a senior beauty pageant in Crossville and one of the former winners was there, in her nineties, wearing high heals and a toe ring. No one helped her go on stage when they all went up for the crowning. I have an aunt who is in her seventies that the last time I saw her, was wearing ripped jeans with feathers paint on the legs. This chick still looks as beautiful as ever. You’ve just gotta live like your living and not dying.
hotel fun
I don't stop doing all the things I want to do out of fear. My body is capable, so I don't let the fact that I'm 51 get in the way. I don't take medication. I don't go to the doctor. I don't listen to pharmaceutical commercials that tell about meds I should take. I don't participate in awareness gatherings for disease. It is a proven fact that the more we practice awareness the larger the effect on the population. More awareness = more sick people. I don't need reminders that sickness can happen. I live like it can't. And I don't let people put that stuff in my head.
I believe you have to use everything about your being to keep it young. You need to move in every way you are designed to move and do it often. I believe you have to use your lungs to full capacity a few times a day so that they don't forget how to take deep breaths. I believe you have to keep your nails cared for so that they don't get yellow, thick and crusty from neglect. I believe strongly in use it or lose it.
Plain and simple I still play.
Surround yourself with things you love and don't worry what anyone else will say or think about it.
I experiment with life. These photos are mostly from my fourties because I've moved to Instagram over the last few years and it's much easier to pull down photos from Flickr. You can also go over there on the left to see my Instagram feed for more recent photos.

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

5 magic minutes

Monday, October 30, 2017

up is down and down is up

I try to have a thing figured out before I post about it but I'm not sure I'll ever get to the bottom of this. The thing I'm talking about is the great divide. You're either left or you are right, few fall in the middle. I've always leaned left. Well, not even lean, I'm totally all in and not about to compromise left. I see all the people who look at the world so different than me and I look at where they get their information and to me it seems insane that they cannot see through the kind of hate they spread when they exclude other groups. I see a lot of exclusion going on over there and I just cannot be part of it. I'm not even trying to bash people who don't agree with me. I'm just putting it out there like it is in my head and I'm being honest about it. That is all. Please don't stop reading here though cause I might take this in a direction you may not expect.

I take in so much information all the time from so many sources and so many different ideas and ways of being that sometimes, it borders on falling off the edge. I subscribe to Gaia TV and it is a hub of about any seemingly crazy idea you can dream up. Imagine anything and you can probably find it on Gaia. Be it aliens, ancient aliens, JFK conspiracy, secret space programs, meditation, healing, afterlife, pyramids, sacred geometry, earth energy grid, etc. it's all there. Am I suggesting you look into it? No I am not. It will only serve to confuse you as it has me. There are people on there, scientists, astronauts, CIA, journalist, Air Force, NASA, I'm talking high ranking people, who say they know for sure that there are aliens and that they are in and out of our atmosphere on a daily basis. And these people claim that there is a secret space program literally underground that no one knows about where our government is in contact with these aliens. They say that there are space stations all over the dark side of the moon that we fly into and out of all the time. Whether you lean towards believing or not believing (I'm in the latter camp) it can still make you feel crazy just knowing this stuff is out there somewhere. 

So, here's why I even bring any of this up. I cannot figure out what sort world we are really working with. Do we have people on the right convincing their people that they are 24/7 in danger, need a gun and that everyone is their enemy and wants their tax dollars so they can lay back and never have a job. Then we've got the other side where our enemy is global warming, people on the right that exclude anyone not like them, and wealthy people who want to take away any chance we have to help those whose survival depends on getting help. And still there is this other thing where there seems to be some conspiracy to cover any ancient knowledge that could advance civilization. I don't know where to fall anymore. On the one hand I want to turn off Gaia and never think of any of that stuff again but then there are people on there of such high ranking, saying absolute insane things and I cannot understand why they would say these things and risk looking like one flew over the cuckoo's nest, unless it were true. 

The only thing I can figure is this. People put ideas into the world to make money. They sell conservative shit to the conservatives not because it is true but because people are thirsty for it and it will make money. Others sell liberal shit to the liberals because they need to think that the world needs saving and that they are gonna be the ones who save it. The far out there shit like Gaia, sell their ideas to what's left because there is a market for that. They really have all the bases covered. Meanwhile, here we all are, confused, separate and lost at how to move forward. I'm not saying there might not be some basis for some of what we feel but all of it still could be a product they are selling and we are buying. If we all start getting along and loving each other there isn't much of a market for that. It is way easier to sell ideas to keep people separate. If we all were somewhat on the same page we wouldn't go out looking for answers and buying up the ones that seem to support what we already believe. 

So I'm not really sure why I decided to write this but when you read it and look at it from your own lens and twirl it with your own experience, maybe you'll be able to write along with me and help me figure out how we can come together in a place where there is no market for separation. Cause baby, separation is high on the stock exchange in this world we live in right now and I think we need to stop buying shares.

Saturday, October 28, 2017

I am about to blow your effin' mind

I had a brilliant conversation with a new friend of mine this morning. I swear to Santa and other holiday fictional entities of both Easter and Tooth, that if you could have a twin by another mother he would be mine. We talked about all the stuff we don't tell everyone because we still have a tiny grain of needing to appear sane. I mean it's tiny but it is there.

Here are a few things I want to share with you and maybe I've touched on some of it before but I just want to make this post a micro encyclopedia of this type of thing. I'm just going to post a few videos and then I'll do a very small wrap-up at the end. Don't skip down. You need to immerse yourself these experiments first.

Here's the water crystal discovery:

Here is the rice experiment:

Tom Shadyac talks briefly about the experiment he was part of in his Docu "I AM" You can see the entire thing at that link.
Here is the video where Myth Bustersa tried to debunk this.

and this:

And one last thing. Here are some singing plants:

Now here is my little take on it all but really more of a question to you:

Friday, October 27, 2017

Vanilla Isis

I recently read an article about the recruiting of white Nationalist/new KKK. It appears that they are recruiting by appearing to be separate from obvious hate groups. They are billing their group as a home for young white men that they brainwash into thinking they are part of a disenfranchised group. Yes, white men are sold that they are a marginalized group and they actually believe it. As I've said here before, imagine what it would be like if they actually were as marginalized as they make others who are unlike them. This makes them appear to be the snowflakiest of all snowflakes. 

The other thing this group is doing is trying to blend in with their group uniform. Now it’s khakis and polo shirts instead of hoods and robes. Between the brainwashing and the new uniform, it makes it easy to see how one might be recruited while still believing they aren’t a part of what they actually are a part of. That is effin’ scary.

If you think about the more international hate groups like Isis or the Taliban, you can see that this new Nationalist movement isn’t much different. They recruit innocent young men with promises of being a part of protecting a way of life they think is important or are brainwashed into thinking it’s important. Then these young men line up to do the bidding of this group that makes them feel part of something important. Then they head out in a truck and drive it into a crowd and kill.

If you don’t think this is a thing and that these people aren’t being brainwashed with the most ludicrous ideas to turn them against peace loving people, read this article and then think about a man that is part of a hate group killing his father for calling him a Nazi. He actually thought he was the good guy and was enraged by being called exactly what he was because he doesn’t believe that he is that.

This is where we are folks and it ain’t pretty.

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Be Your Own Effin' Neo the Video

This is the video companion to the last blog post. Now you have a choice. You can read it or watch it.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

You Don't Need Neo, You Can Be Your Own Effin' Neo

I remember watching The Matrix the very first time. I knew that story symbolically so well I could have written it. I had already begun seeing the "code" and I felt like I was Neo. I know that sounds so lofty, I ain't no fool to that but it is how I felt. I'd been a part of that world that embraced every idea of how to be a good little girl, wife and mother. I'd also got sick of being the idea of that and I shatter my place in it all and then I lived to see the other side. I felt like I was a much better person after I stopped trying to be one. I was real. I was authentic. I wasn't looking over my shoulder thinking someone would figure out that I'd played at something I wasn't. I also didn't worry what they'd think of the change. I didn't care. That was their thing and this was mine.

A few weeks back I was listening to Oprah's SuperSoul podcast with Iyanla Vanzant. The two were speaking of the first time they read A Course in Miracles. They recalled how scared they were of what God would think of them reading this book and how he might strike them with lightening before the end of the next day. Oprah said she was so afraid she just wanted to get it out of her house. I remember having the same feelings the first time I entertained that I might have been mislead. I knew without a doubt that I did not know the truth of this world but I was so scared to finally turn my back on everything I'd been taught. This is intentional in the teachings. It is a genius act to set up a system to control people and then set up within that system that you cannot question it without sacrificing your soul. Even Oprah, a lady who has had access to every well known guru of this century, was too afraid to have a book in her house that questioned the old belief system she grew up in. Genius. It's effin' genius. This country could not be more ensnared in this trap if they tried to be.

What do we know? We know exactly what we have been taught. I can count on my hands the people I've know in my life that have the strength to open their eyes and judge and learn for themselves what the world is. I raised two of them in my house so that doesn't leave a lot of people.

We open our mouths at birth for nourishment at a time when we are unable to resist what is being fed to our fragile bodies and from there on out we keep swallowing it down and never ever judge for ourselves if it truly nourishes us.

We listen to our families and see them respond and that's how we learn the rules. We go to school in a rigid environment where adults who learned about the world the same way we did, tell us the rules and who marginalize our differences and try to get us all to march to the same standards no matter our talents or uniqueness. It's not their fault. It's just part of the system that keeps us enslaved to mediocrity. Our teachers grew up in the same system and so did our parents. And now it's your turn.

Think back to all of the movies and tv shows that you watched growing up. You weren't only taught what the standards are in the system by the people who influenced you growing up, you also saw it all over your tv and now you see it all over the internet. We are enshrined in a system that wants us all to be the same. I can count it back to the first memories I have. I can also count it back to the first tv shows I ever loved.

Leave it to Beaver had the mom happily homemaking in pearls and heels for her family. Gilligan's Island had a clear line drawn down the middle between the abilities of the women and men. Girls bake pies and boys fight off headhunters. Girls are fragile and shallow and men are strong and smart. We watched women try to fend off advances from men only to give in if the man persisted. We also watched them try to fight off men but then give in once the man slapped their face, making it appear that this ignited passion and ultimately change their minds. That has never happened to me and if it did, a slap would only make me want out of the situation more. No wonder men are confused.

And no wonder women are confused. Until later in the last century women had been spoon fed being submissive, with no capacity for scientific or mathematical study, being without basic rights that men have always had and of a gender group that had no real voice in the world. Every idea and method that has been used to hold women down has been reinforced politically, socially, religiously and in a lot of ways, they still are today. It is the reason that even after the current president was heard to talk about women in such a nasty way, many of them still voted for him. In the minds of these women they heard him talk about women in a way that they felt was so common that it set off zero alarms in them. They are used to being marginalized and these women believed the role of being a woman puts them in a place where being spoken of in that sort of way was both expected and normal.

Think back to any show you loved growing up and look for the propaganda used to make you stay in your role. This may not have be intentional but maybe just a mirror held up against how society operates. Think back to anything an adult ever taught you and you will see the effects of this. They taught you what they were taught to believe. At this point no one knows truth. It's why I abhor looking out on a golf course at a bunch of white men wearing polo shirts and Bermuda shorts. Anytime there is a uniform involved in an activity it is from fear. They are afraid of bucking the system. They do not realize they can wear anything they want. The whole idea of a country club is like an institution built on and for the system. To be included in this club is a mark that you have bought all the way into the system. It's a bit of insanity.

There are some of you reading this right now and you are afraid just like Oprah was. It will be okay. If you take one step towards questioning the system, the cogs will start to fall apart, the machine will break down and you will stop buying in. When you see the truth you won't be able to go in reverse and unsee it. So, once the door is open you won't be able to close it back. Entertain every idea no matter how crazy and then you can decide for yourself that maybe it is crazy or maybe it's not at all. Up till now you've believed in some batshit crazy stuff. If you've been able to entertain those ideas your whole life, you can open the door a little wider and study on other things that might just seem crazy right now. You have to make yourself a little uncomfortable for the sake of progressing in life. If you only do what is comfortable you may as well stay on the couch and continue being programmed. If you weren't made to be unique why the hell were you born? If we are only going to be a copy and not an original then we may as well be programmed robots.

To come back to A Course in Miracles, it asked you to give every detail another look and try seeing without the definitions you were given of what a thing is and just try to see what the thing is for yourself. Most people will never think to do this and the suggestion of it scares them to death just like it did Oprah. If so many others can start to see the world through fresh eyes and decide for themselves what is right and wrong then you can too. Your fear is the only thing holding you back. It's sounds crazy to say but it is true. The line that separates you from ignorance is so fine it could be cracked like glass wall. You don't have to even break through the glass wall, just walk up to it for a second and look at what's on the other side.

If this all sounds cuckoo to you and nothing else you've believed up until this post has seemed crazy then you don't know what crazy is. You only know what people tell you crazy is. Since you were born someone has told you what a thing is and now I'm asking you to think and look and learn for yourself what it is.

Everything you think you know is a portrait painted by everything and everyone that has influenced your life. Paint over it and start all over. This time do it your way. Don't believe a single soul when they try to tell you what to paint. Don't even believe me. Just make sure it comes from your soul and not from outside influence.

If you want to be happy and stop feeling like you don't know who you are this is the way. You don't know YOU because the YOU in there got covered up with the camouflage the world gave you to wear so that you would fit in and not make waves. They don't even know when they do it because the code was already written when they arrived and they've lived it their whole lives. That is what is real to them even though it is the opposite of what is real. Don't wait on someone to decipher the code for you so that you can be free. You can be your own effin' Neo.

5 Magic Minutes

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

5 Magic Minutes

Why do we all feel the need to be a bunch of hateful assholes?

Sunday, October 1, 2017

is this just being an adult...cause if it is i don't like it

Come along with me for a minute and lets go back in time to when we were young and dumb. It seems like a much better time than now. I'm not sure it was but it feels like it was when I check in with my heart while remembering it. Have you seen the Member Berries on South Park? Well let's do a little Member Berries montage of our own.

  • Member when you rode off on your bike in the morning and returned later and no one had sent out a search party?
  • Member when the things you watched on TV were silly and meaningless?
  • Member when you kinda liked most people and didn't ride away judging your every interaction with them?
  • Member when you ate all kinds of bad shit and didn't die from it or get sick?
  • Member when you knew what you liked and weren't ashamed of it?
  • Member when you didn't even think about using a gun to gun down some imagined person who might break into your house?
  • Member when your Dad could pass a slow car on the road and they actually tapped the break to let you by instead of getting mad and speeding up to prevent you from passing?
  • Member when you'd pass "the liars table" in a local restaurant and people were laughing and playfully teasing the people at the table whose ideas were a little out there?
  • Member when the news was a place to turn to when you needed to know what was going on in the world instead of a thing feeding you the opinions that they wanted you to have?
  • Member when church was a place you went to be a better person and a place that was concerned with helping the needy instead of a feather for your cap, a breeding ground for hateful politics and a wealth built palace where people go to so someone will tell them God wants them to be wealthy and to stop enabling people on welfare?
  • Member when you were still young enough to look around a room and believe that the people around you just wanted to love each other and do all they could for the betterment of all?
So maybe things were never the way the Member Berries 'member them. Maybe it all appeared that way to the youthful minds of babes yet untarnished by everything we'd learn through life that would lead us to be adults. 

It could be a chicken and egg thing. Maybe the tarnish is the problem and nothing has changed. Maybe the way we were taught to see the world is the problem. Maybe if we'd not be taught it was an ugly place out there we'd still be able to see the real beauty. Maybe the children see what's real and the rest of us just don't know it.

Member when you woke one day and you realized you had a choice that could not be taken from you? Member those scene you play out in your head that only you can control? Member now that your life will be comprised of exactly those scenes that you alone get to direct? Member how what others do really has no influence on your life, only you decide what will influence you? Member how Grandmother used to say you need to sweep your own porch before you go try to sweep someone else's. 

Well, here's your porch and here's a broom.

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

5 magic minutes?

I still love you even if you hate this video. If you do hate it then it might just be a message for you. 

Thursday, September 21, 2017

now you're really pissed

I just recorded a video (it'll go up on September 26th) talking about the lack of oppression white people have faced in America. These poor people, guys it's just so sad.😉 Maybe if they'd ever faced real oppression they wouldn't be so keen to look down on others.'s not just being white, it's being Christian. Yep, I said that.

I hear so much about how Christians are oppressed from the mouths of Christians. But...what I see is not so much Christians being judged but them judging other religions. They just can't seem to stand it when people do not believe like they believe. The thing is...religion in any form is basically the same thing. Throughout the Bible there are stories of God commanding that women be raped, that children be killed and that cities be conquered. But yes, that is a sane religion and all others are insane.

The God of the Bible also allows slavery, including selling your own daughter as a sex slave (Exodus 21:1-11), child abuse (Judges 11:29-40 & Isaiah 13:16), and bashing babies against rocks (Hosea 13:16 & Psalms 137:9). 

So, it's not so much that you are being oppressed but that you call it oppression when someone says, "Nah, I don't agree with that."'s not so much that you are oppressed but that you are the oppressor. Every person living has as much right to their belief as you do. If you want the freedom to believe as you do, then give others the same freedom. 

My Grandmother used to say, "you need to sweep your own porch before you go tryin' to sweep somebody else's." I'd say that pretty much sums it up. I'll pour one out for ya G-Mother and I'll make it Ancient Age. I know how you used love it. Love to Ya.

Monday, September 18, 2017

The Energy In The Room

A family member sent me a video of children singing Karaoke. When I watched I couldn't help but be reminded of my inability to perform without looking like someone ran over my new puppy. It's not my thing and it's also not the thing this is about. The video just woke up a thought in me that was laying dormant. 

Here's the meat and potatoes. One person can change the energy in a room. That is why all TV shows have comedians that warm up the crowds before the show starts. It raises the energy in the room and gets everyone tuned to the same frequency. I feel like the people who came up with this may just think that it cheers everyone up and gets them ready to applaud. It does but it goes way deeper than that. The way you can tell is by bringing the room down. You will actually feel the change in your body. I refer you to this video. There is a reason Tony Robbins hypes up his crowd. There is a reason that your body doesn't feel too well after you watch violence or something sad on TV. This is not just a one man/woman show, everyone feels it. If the room is happy and someone comes in with something that brings the energy down it never happens to just one person. It happens to everyone. 

Moral of the story: One person can feed the feeling in the room. Remember that when you are having a shitty day. Remember that when your children are acting in a way you don't like them to act. They could be feeding off of you. Too bad we don't have our own warm up people while we get ready in the morning. It could keep us from having bad days. 

Hands in the middle:

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Dear Dictators of The World:

I know that title must sound like a joke but it isn't. Let me start by addressing you all by pointing to this link that holds your names and faces. Surprise, you are all men, fearful little men. There you are, puppet master to the US President. Oh and you, you are the most scared of all.

I know that some of you arrived at your post with strongly held beliefs that with force and a strong arm you would hold dominion over your people. Yes this will do that but at every turn there will be someone waiting to unseat you. You give them no choice. If you were in their position what choice would you have? Knowing they have no choice, you look over your shoulder, believing that you might one day be fatally removed from power. You think if you keep them afraid enough they'll be too fearful to act. There will be some strong soul with love for the people, that they will gladly give their life to see freedom for those people. That strength is the thought that wakes you and stops your deep sleep each night. You do not fear what is but what could be because you know the mind of man and you know he will one day rise. I understand that you may feel that you have no other path because of the power and money that backs you. To cross them would put yourself in the crosshairs as well. What you have may seem like strength in it's showing but when it all comes down to it your strength is just a mask for your fear. Strong people do not need to be feared.

I give to you a better way. I give you a way of true strength that carries no fear. Had you the heart of a lion you would stand for right and you would have no fear of the repercussions. If you free your people you open the door that allows you to stop looking over your shoulder. And if you die trying that would be the greatest death. As it stands now, you will one day die because you have no dominion over death and every ounce of harm you have caused others will feel like the flesh is being burned away from your dying heart. There will be no peace for you.

Take all the time you need to meditate on this. Find a nice quiet spot where you can be alone. Imagine for a moment what it would feel like if your people allowed you power because they love you. Sit with that.

You could sit with that forever but now let's go back and feel what your life feels like everyday that you cause harm to other people.

I'm not sure how you got the wrong idea. It could have been learned from others. It could be that you experienced a feeling of power by bullying someone. Maybe you just wanted to be wealthy and the price was holding your people down to keep money in your pockets and that of your benefactors. Any old way you slice it, you are weak. Standing up would show courage and you've never been able to do that. The man that will take you down for the love of his people has true strength. A man like you has no strength for he fears his own undoing.

Dear Dictators of the World, you have a choice and so far you have been too fearful to make it. You might look to those countries who have freedom at their forefront. You will not see those people plotting to overthrow their government. And you won't see leaders in fear of that. Well, that is until they start seeing signs of liberty being taken away. I'm just saying, you might not have ever weighed your options but it's not too late.    

Monday, September 11, 2017

in the fabulous words of Kevin Hart "you gone learn t'day"

Please watch this and you will be amazed at what you will learn. I don't know how many times I've watched it. Hint: it's a bunch.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Life Changer

I wanted this to be a 5 magic minutes video but I couldn't whittle it down any tighter than it is. Have fun with this. You will not believe the change that you will feel by the end.

Friday, September 8, 2017

this will sound like horn tootin but I promise I'm just trying to make a point

Okay, so on October 7th I will turn 51. I've lived a little while. When I think back over all those years there is one recurring theme to the things people say about me and the things people say to me. That theme would be, I could never...I could never dress like you dress, I love what you do but I could never, I could never put myself out there like you do, I could never be that comfortable with saying what I really think and it goes on and on. I could easily retire on the money I could have earned if I made a dollar each time that I heard that phrase. Well, I've got just one thing to say to all the people who have said that of/to me, Yes You Can!

If you could never then neither could I but I did. So I guess I'm saying you are wrong. All of those "could nevers" say only one thing, "I cannot be me." You are afraid people won't accept you for who you really are but I'm living proof you are wrong. I know that I may not be everyone's cup of tea but I wouldn't be even if I held back one ounce of who I am. If there's a chance people might still not like me when I hold back then why would I do it. Why not put myself out there and attract people who would like someone like me? Imagine how that feels. What would it feel like to let your hair down, kick your feet up and just be you? What would it feel like if you showed the world who you really are and they said "Hell Yeah?" They will and the ones that won't will not outnumber those who already didn't like you but you might gain a few.'d be free.

One thing I can say for sure, any set back you have from being genuinely who you are will only be temporary. I have always stood up for those I think need me to and for myself. My very wise and well meaning granddaddy told me years ago, "You are just like your mother. You let people push you out front to speak for them and then when you turn around all those people will be gone. No one will stand behind you." That may be the only time he was ever wrong but he was. Well, maybe he was right about people not having my back but if I had heeded his warning, I'd have gone against all I've ever been. Staying true to myself has never failed me. I have always stood up even if it set me back a moment. In the end, only good came out of it.

I changed positions at work once because I didn't want to work for a person that really treated people terribly. The position I took was phased out in a downsize and the next job I got I met B. If I'd just stayed in the first position and kept my mouth shut, I'd have kept my job but I wouldn't have met Bryan. Score!

I once stood up in a meeting to advocated to not cut employee pay in a room full of people strongly contemplating doing so and guess what? They didn't cut pay and I believe they just wanted someone to voice another view because they were looking for another option. No one else in that room was going to stand even if they agreed with me. I know because the ones who did agreed with me told me later that, guess what? They "never could" have said what I said in that room. One of those people may even be reading this. I could go on and on but I won't. Just trust me that it pays off in the end.

You've just gotta have faith. Goodness always prevails in the end. Being true to who you are always prevails in the end. Do a trust fall with the universe. I promise it will catch you. Man, don't you know, it's what you are effin here for. 

Thursday, September 7, 2017

I Miss Wayne Dyer

I miss the guy. I do. Last night I decided to write to him and send some questions over to the other side to see if anything came to me. Most of the day I'd spent thinking about how messed up the world is right now. So, I asked him what he thought about it because I need some real hand holding about it from someone who I felt knew how to speak to these things. Immediately I remembered the story he used to tell about meeting the couples on the beach.

Wayne says he was walking on the beach and I'm not sure if he told this to be true or just in parable. He ran into a couple who said they were thinking of moving there and asked how he liked it. He said, "how are things where you live?" They explain that the place is terrible and the people are terrible. Then he tells them, "I think you'll find the same thing here." He later runs into another couple inquiring about moving there and he asked them how things are where they live. They tell him it's beautiful and the people are beautiful and he tells them, "I think you'll find the same thing here." What Wayne is explaining with this story is that you will see the world as you are. If you are more positive you will have a more affirming view of the world and if you are negative you will probably be more pissed about the world.

After remembering this, I pulled up old video footage of him and watched a while. One of the first things he said was, "When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change." This goes hand and hand with the beach story. If the people on the beach wanted to find a place that seemed nicer then they first had to learn how to see nicely. It is like the saying, "Wherever you go, there you are." You cannot out run yourself. It will be the consistent thing in all situations you find yourself in. If everything always seems like shit, maybe you just feel like shit and bring that attitude into everything.

Thanks Wayne. You came through as always. If I want to see a better world it's on me. I can choose to only see the fearful side or I can see the side filled with love. I gotta start choosing better. Damn.

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Here's This Week's 5 Magic Minutes

I am starting a new video series called 5 Magic Minutes. I hope that I will be able to hit ya with some thoughts that might make you feel stronger, healthier, happier and your day brighter.So here's your first installment. It pairs well with the previous post and a glass of wine. Hope you like it.

Monday, September 4, 2017

Whatever IT is, Be The Shit Out Of It

Hello sweetest hearts that you are to come here and read these thoughts that won't leave me. These thoughts build and build and I release them here in this space hoping that some of you are in this moment, thinking these same thoughts along with me. I hope that when you hear someone else say this shit it stops you from feeling crazy.

Today I'm here saying that you have to stop that tape in your brain that tells you to turn down your flame so that others won't judge you. They will. It's what they do. They'll even judge you if you turn off your light altogether. They're just afraid you won't like their light so they need you to turn yours down so they don't feel alone. How dare you shine without them.

I was just talking with B today about how insanely different each individual is. I find people like me and I know you do too but as much like us as they are, there are still so many night and day differences that we are still an island unto ourselves. And ya know what, I'm more than okay with that. That my dears is what makes us so beautiful. Those most astounding beauty resides there in the person that knows who they are and they are the shit out of it. The people who "try to be" anything are the ones hardest for me to be around. There is no try to be. That's acting like someone else. I'm telling you to be you. People who do not know themselves drain the shit out of me because I feel like I spend all my energy mentally holding them up and trying not to break them.

How do you become a person who knows who they are and is the shit out of it? The first thing you need to do is turn the knob off on giving a shit what others are gonna think. The others that will judge you will not be getting to the end of your life for you and regretting for you that you never lived. Let them stifle their own self and regret for their own self. You my dear are a thing of boldness and beauty, not to be denied freedom, joy, love and happiness.

Don't let any fuckin' body steal your thunder. Roar your ass off and those who want to hear you roar will show up and roar with you.

So are you still here? Great! I'm glad you are in this partnership with me where I write and you interpret my words in a way that tells your own story. There were some of you who read a bit of this and clicked away. That's okay. Maybe on another day we'll meet in that space where we connect. We are all in this together but maybe we don't always have to ride in the same car with those folks that want the windows up. That's all it is really.