Thursday, December 20, 2018

Here Are Links I Promised

I am placing my video at the bottom because you may have watched it on Facebook. Above that video I'm adding videos and links to things you may not know about the country we live in. If you've not heard of "Black Wall Street" please make sure to watch that video.

The Trail Of Tears/Andrew Jackson
Racial Disparities in Incarceration
Voting Rights for African Americans
Rights African Americans Had to Fight For
Women’s Suffrage
Rights Women Had To Fight For

Monday, November 19, 2018

because she can make just a few words seem magical

I have followed Andrea Jenkins on her blog Hula Seventy for so many years I don't know now. I also love her photography so much that I have a tiny wall in my living room committed to only her. Her etsy shop is mostly boarded up and she rarely writes on her blog now. I have to wait for the fallen scrapes she drops from time to time but it's worth it. It's so worth it.

I went over at stole a few examples that I think illustrate perfectly why it would be so worth your time to visit her blog and spend some time there. Treat it like meditation. It will be just as soothing to the soul.

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

Can We Talk? Seriously, Can We?

I found this stat list at and wanted to share it as a quick reference for people who visit this blog. I think people need to know these numbers if there is any chance that, we as a society, can be more loving and accepting to transgender individuals. If you only judge without getting to know and understand people who are not like you then you may one day help contribute to some of the scarier of those statistics, like the suicide rate, as well as the feeling of being unsafe.

If you are using your religious beliefs to justify your nonacceptance of transgender people, you might want to rethink that. If you are Christian, then you are breaking the 2nd of the two "greatest commandments" as is stated in the Bible:

Matthew 22 Verses 34 to 40
[37] Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. [38] This is the first and great commandment. [39] And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. [40] On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.

You may also want to follow this bit of scripture in this case as well:

Matthew 7 Verses 2 to 4
[2] For with the same judgment you pronounce, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. [3] Why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but fail to notice the beam in your own eye? [4] How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ while there is still a beam in your own eye?

What I'd suggest you do is rather than have an uninformed opinion, inform yourself. You can find a wealth of knowledge here. Being more kind to people who aren't like you won't send you to hell and I'm sad for anyone who believes that it will. I know you are scared but you are scared because someone taught you to be or from what you've witnessed about how people close to you think about this. You can think for yourself and I'd wager greatly that if there is a God, they put you here just so you would learn to do just that. That is why, according to the Bible, you have freewill. Freewill is yours to use. You don't have to follow blindly.

Monday, October 22, 2018

Apparently there's not enough words in the dictionary to make people understand this point.

I don't disrespect anyone's opinion unless it devalues who someone is and then I disrespect the hell out of it. There is that fine line in disrespecting others and just saying no to the mistreatment of others. I can say I don't agree with that person's opinion but if I say that ignorant people shouldn't exist, that is a different story. To say I should respect someone's opinion that is clearly wrong is like telling me to have respect for Hitler or a lynch mob. I wouldn't respect someone's opinion if their opinion was that someone else isn't worthy of the same rights they have. I just wanted to point this out to someone watching/reading that may not get me.

Tuesday, October 16, 2018

man, this was not the post I thought I was writing

Maybe you saw my last video and maybe you didn't. If you did then you heard me speak about something dear to my heart and that is equality. If you believe Brandi in Sedona, who gave my reading, then you know it's why I'm on this earth. If you believe everyone has a purpose and that so happens to be mine, then you must believe it isn't by accident. And... by that, if there is no purpose in finding equality, then there'd be no use for me. But I'm still here.

Do we all have a purpose? I waiver on that all the time including on whether I have one. I don't think we have to know the answer to that because if we do serve some sort of purpose then in just living and being who we are we serve that purpose even without knowing.

I have read books that include the transcripts from sessions of people in Life Between Life Regression Therapy and a lot of them have one thing in common. The people remembering their time as a soul often remark about equality on the other side. They report that all souls are equal regarding how they are loved and cared for in soul form. If you committed mass death or died as an infant, your souls would be equal on the other side. The reason for this is purpose. No matter what you did while alive and in flesh, it was a matter of purpose to advance mankind. Sometimes that means your purpose could be to effect people in a large enough scope as to make real and lasting shifts. It is said we have a soul team and with the help of that team we incarnate with a plan to advance our soul or, in some cases, to surrender our own advancement for the advancement of others. When you think about it like that, then you could see that those who commit the greatest harm sacrifice the most for the greater advancement of mankind. That hurts my brain too, I promise you that.

When you think about all of this it makes bad things happening to good people make sense. If we choose in soul form, what we want to accomplish in flesh, then when bad things happen it is just a part of our plan to sacrifice for the advancement of others or ourselves. It takes away the confusion people seem to have regarding why those who try hardest to be good aren't always rewarded by "God" with good and why bad isn't always rewarded by "God" with bad.

This may all seem crazy to you if you are a Christian and do not believe in reincarnation, but I can assure you there are crazier things you believe because I used to be one of you.

I find one thing in all these revelations so amazing. As an advocate for equality I am so intrigued by souls being equal on the other side. Imagine that if you just committed some sort of atrocity on earth and you were greeted with the same love that a person who lived a life of sacrifice to others. You chose to sacrifice yourself in an evil seeming sort of way while in flesh as part of a plan to advance others and for this reason you are not judged. Because of the way most of us believe who are alive on the planet right now, this is a very hard concept to grasp. When you are telling yourself "God wouldn't give you anything you cannot handle" while you witness countless people commit suicide, I don't think what I am purposing is that hard of a concept to grasp.

Now that you know there is a chance that your soul is equal to all others in death, let's get to work on making this also so in life.

I sat down to write about equality and to discuss the different groups our society has different rules for when it comes to equality and it immediately morphed. That makes me feel like there is someone out there that needed to read this post instead of the one I thought I was writing. If that's true, sure hope they find it. PeAcE!

Sunday, October 14, 2018


In this video it is obvious I had a few things I wanted to talk about, none of which I segue into seamlessly. You know how I like to keep it real so that's what I'm doing. I'll post it, then you watch it and figure out for yourself if it's genius or unforgivable. 😘

Sunday, September 23, 2018

My Little Shoe Secret
My secret is, that I buy most of my shoes at If I don't get them at 6pm then I buy them at Jay's in Jamestown or Marti and Liz in the Cookeville store. I have a lot of shoes and those pictured above are some I purchased this year and all of them are amazing. The black puma's I actually own in red but it seems they may have sold out of that color. If I didn't have so many shoes I'd get the Sbicca Mulah's in black. That shoe is like butter and so comfortable. You can see them in the previous outfit photo where I'm wearing the lime dress and jeans. Oh, and the K-Swiss, also like butter and the most comfortable shoe I own.

100% of my Birkenstock sandals come from Jay's & Marti & Liz. 100% of my flip flops come from Old Navy because they do have the best ones.

So, okay that 'bout wraps it up. I like to share a good thing when I find it. 

Some September Outfits

And yes in 3 of these 4 I am wearing the same jeans but then, I am a pimp like that.

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

Past Life Reading

I  found this listing on Etsy and decided to purchase it just for fun. If anything they say here is true of a past life of mine, then I seem to be caring most of it still with me because a lot of it sounds just like me now. If you want to take the time to read it I'll tell you how it compares to me now at the end.

Past Life Reading
To: Tonya Ruanto
        Hello it is wonderful speaking with you, and I am very happy to get a chance to show you an aspect of your past. I want to thank you for choosing this reading and putting your trust in Dark Secret Creations. Before we begin let me explain a little about past lives. You see we are all eternal beings in physical bodies. All of our experiences we have ever been through is still with us and is a part of our soul existence.
      This lifetime we are about to journey through is one that happened a few hundred years ago. This one was a shorter one. I am seeing that you passed away in your late 20’s as a result of being accused of witchcraft. It was by hanging. I believe and you indeed were a powerful person. You had so much connection with your higher self, and you practiced the beliefs of old and gave honor to the old Gods and Goddesses. I am seeing that you practiced some spells, but they were for good. You never used your knowledge for bad or to gain too much for yourself. You would always think of others, and that is how you got seen. Well it wasn’t seen, but found… You decided to help a woman who was very ill. You gave her some herbs and remedies you had in your book, and you chanted over her. She indeed got better, but it was her mother who didn’t like the chanting you did.
         The woman was fine with it, but her mother was a gossip in town and the news spread like wild fire. They ended up coming for you in the middle of the night after a few weeks of the gossip floating around. There was talk of you spreading sickness and simply healing that woman so they wouldn’t be on your trail. There was talk of you taunting people in their sleep. You were a very beautiful woman, and some of the men would lust after you. And so when they had sexual dreams about you, they would blame you for doing that to them. Giving them sinful thoughts.
         I also see an older woman and man died of natural causes around the same time of one another, and they blamed that on you. Of course you were not to blame, but they thought you were. I am not seeing that you got a trial. You were murdered as a result of their fear of the unknown.
         I wanted to bring all of that through first because it was an important aspect of the life. But it wasn't all... you had many good moments too. I even see a bit of a romance. You were taught these spiritual things from your mother and grandmother. They were both into ancient practices. It was quite natural for you all, but the others who didn't understand made it seem evil. But you were very one with nature. You would sit under large trees just listening to the song of the forest. You would collect beautiful stones, and utilize them for their energy. You would use a part of a nearby creek for healing. There was a small waterfall near and you would use the water for cleansing purposes. It was always very clear water and the stones you would find there were so beautiful. Some natural rock quartz you would find there too. And so you knew it was highly charged water. Nearby that area you met a man. He was a passerby. A traveling soul. So your moments were brief. He was only in the area for a week or two. But during that time you both experienced a lot of passion. He had to leave, and you felt an obligation to stay. Partially because of your mother and grandmother, but also because you loved the natural beauty of the area. You had one time mended a bird back to health. It had a sore wing, and you helped feed him and such until he was better. You did the same with a squirrel. One time in the forest you came across a larger animal, I think a bear. But you spoke to the bear and said you were not going to harm him. You apologized for frightening him and was saying that while slowly backing away. You had a way with nature that really put the essence of magic into your beliefs. And so all of this is still stored within you.
        Now let me explain what purpose this lifetime served. You got to heal that woman, help animals, etc. They went on to spread a lot of much needed love. But also you grew as a result of this. You learned how to overcome and balance your energies during this lifetime. You learned a lot of techniques and rituals as a result of your mother and grandmother. It served its purpose and after that lifetime you went back into the higher realms to continue your soul journey. And you may not have all the similar beliefs, but you will find that you still have this soul knowledge within you begging to be unlocked. 

Here are the things I find in that life that compares to now:
  • I've always thought I smothered to death in a past life (hanging) because of the number of issues I've had with breathing. Even if I see or anticipate someone having trouble breathing I have to remind myself to breath in order not to have an attack where I cannot breath. 
  • I use the spring at Standing Stone on Baptist Ridge to clean my crystals. They have never met purified water. Using natural water just feels right to me.
  • I collect rocks. They are all over my porch railings.
  • I use crystals to keep the energy clear in my home, offices and studio.
  • I do love nature. Hiking is my favorite thing to do in the world. I love to kayak or just find any reason to be next to water.
  • My great great grandmother was a witch on my mom's side through my grandmother. So, my grandmother's, grandmother was a healer but because of the time she was referred to as a witch.
  • I study and administer energy healing. I can actually feel where there is a problem in a person's body like a strong electrical vibration. Starting out it only felt like temp differences but now it actually vibrates in my hands when I find an issue.
  •  I love trees and actually talk to them and I thank them for what they do for us. I especially make sure to talk to the old ones who have been working for us a long time and I do love to sit under or against them.
  • I still don't seek to gain too much for myself. I'd rather give than take.
  • I do feel like I have soul knowledge being unlocked in me all the time.

So that was fun.

Sunday, September 2, 2018

The Sweetest Parts

It's a simple thing really but taking our usual drive this morning was just a good reminder to me of how much I love this world. We drove along Mill Creek while we ate our usual Dairy Queen breakfast burrito and watched as birds greeted us and then seemed to cheer us along our path. It's always a great reminder. That is why we do it so much. 

We always see lots of wildlife; turkeys, deer, hawks and an occasional blue heron fishing from a rock in the creek. On occasion we will find an animal out and we will try to round it up and get it back where it belongs. Sometimes I just ask B to stop so I can talk to the critters standing by the fence. There are days the weather is so perfect we have to roll the windows down. Some days there is music playing in the background of it all and some not. We go slow and enjoy every second.

We point out the same two spots that we'd love to own. His choice, a house on top of the hill and mine a farm in the valley that is so near perfect that I cannot imagine a single thing could have ever gone wrong for the people who live there. Oh, and mine has a thousand stories. I can see it in the land. There is the two-story white house with its perfect porch. It has a smokehouse and other out buildings that make it appear that at one point it was probably near self-sustaining. There is also a graveyard in the back. Some days we see the occupants outside who are older and look as if this place is their history. It feels like they could tell you all of its secrets. 

We always look to see if the creeks are running and talk of whether we should kayak or float them on a tube. These trips are, all but a hand full, just in our heads. We talk about it way more than we do it. 

On these mornings I don't do a single thing to prepare before going out the door. I don't shower or comb my hair. I just go and it makes me feel so free.

Friday, August 31, 2018


I think back over the last few months and feel like we let summer go by and didn't do anything. Then I review the photos from this season and this happens: