i gotta lot on my mind grapes

I guess I quit blogging a while back but my mind has been so full lately that I think maybe I should use this space to empty it.

As yall know, if you're part of my community, I quit Christianity 3 decades ago. I’ve told this a thousand and one times here or there but I mostly quit church and all that goes with it, because I was a parent. It didn’t set well with me that I should worship a being that wasn’t as worthy as myself. I’d think about how God was jealous, vengeful and would allow us to burn for an eternity if we messed up on purpose or even by accident. Then that would cause me to wonder why God couldn’t be better than me since I wasn’t jealous, vengeful or ready to punish my children with fire if they messed up. If I’m gonna worship anything (which I’m ABSOLUTELY not gonna do) then I needed that being to at least be better than the mortal human being that is me. It doesn’t seem like a big ask from an all-powerful God.

So, after all these years I really started to question all the changes in the bible, all the lost books and why a king needed his own version. All I can say is that my greater intuition regarding this cult of religion was indeed correct. It didn’t seem right that women weren’t equal and why with the way our minds tackle information, would we be the ones to have to learn in silence. I am pretty sure that I even wrote in my book 20 something years ago that I was sure the reason was that men knew that women were better equipped to understand these teachings and they had to silence them because the truth would come out. Well, now that I’m looking into it, that is exactly what happened.

I don’t want to make this a long post but I will be back soon to elaborate on all of this. Please come back to visit later this week I and I’ll get started on all that. It’s a lot.